My post “Man, I want to be a lady” was actually less about the archetypal “lady” and more about the frustration I was feeling about the mundanity of my life.
As I have mentioned before, I am a recent graduate. All through University, I often worked 2 jobs, full time school and volunteering. Which meant that often my life was so busy that I never truly had time to sit still. This worked out perfectly for me because I have the type of personality where if I don’t have to do anything, I will stay in bed all day…literally till like 9pm without even peeing.
Or in another words: I have no discipline.
So, once University ended and all of a sudden I had nothing to do – I crashed.
I did what everyone does after they finish school – I slept in, binge watched Netflix (heyloo!), watched plenty of movies. I relaxed.
However the second week in – I was done relaxing. I did not know what to do. Life seemed mundane. I lost the drive to do anything. Most of my friends were busy with their own families, vacations or jobs.
So for the next month I would barely get up from bed, not really dress up, and just kinda became a sloth.
I want to make it very clear: I was not depressed. I was just being the good ol’ fashion lazy. Finally, I was ready to take on new things and I think part of starting this blog was just that. Something that I could get excited about and actually work on.
As I said before, the post “Man, I want to be a lady” was actually less about my desire to be the archetypal lady and more about me needing to feel productive.
So, over the course of the past few weeks I took a few steps that really worked out for me
You know how when you’re a baby, you stay up all night screaming your lungs out? Yeah, I never grew out of that. Even as a toddler, I would stay up till 3-4am while my parents were sound asleep. I think this was partly encouraged since we lived in a huge family of grandparents and my uncle’s family. My uncle has 3 sons and no daughters, so I grew up as one of their kids as well. Which often meant that after my parents went to sleep, I would go and talk to my uncle and aunty or grandpa about my day till 3-4am —- I TALK A LOT (another thing I never grew out of).
I am naturally most energetic at 10.00pm. That’s when my energy spikes. I get so much stuff done if I start it at 10.00pm! So, going to bed at any time before 3 has always been a struggle for me. Thus, my first hurdle was falling asleep.
I have tried everything from sleepy time teas, music, hot showers, sleeping pills, nature voices and heck. even lullabies. However, recently I found something new – bed time guided meditation.
OH.MY.GOD! This thing has changed my life. I don’t know if it’s the ladies voice or what – less than 10 minutes of this and I am sleeping like a rock. Seriously, I feel bad for her – how do people stay awake when she talks to them? The weirdest part about this is that I naturally wake up now, way before the alarms. (Oh! I am the person that usually has 25 different alarms on, and even have one of those loud beeping alarm alarm!). So this is huge for me okay?
I am terrible at eating on time. Seriously! I can easily go about 24 hours without any food. However, if I do eat a big meal – I tend to get hungry within 2 hours. I don’t understand my body either okay? What I have noticed is that, if I eat breakfast, I tend to get very hungry come lunch time. That alone puts my entire eating cycle on a normal rhythm.
Eating two dinners
Okay hear me out on this. As an Indian, I like my dinner at 10.00pm. Which means that like most Indians I too have developed a gut. The thing is, I cant sleep until I am full. I also can’t drink water past 7pm or I will be up all night! 😥 What I have found works for me is to eat two dinners. One at 5pm – usually something rich in carbs. Then I go on a walk (I try to walk minimum 2kms a day) and then when I come back, I will eat a salad. This works out because I am often so hungry after my walk that I actually enjoy eating salad. DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD THAT IS FOR ME?!
Rough Note Book & To Do lists.
Remember how I was lamenting about how I wish I could keep an agenda? Well, its true. I do wish I could keep an agenda. Agendas don’t work out for me. What DOES work out for me are To-Do lists. Since I was in elementary school, I always keep a notebook with me. They are called my “rough books”. It’s a habit that my elementary teachers started us on. A rough book is a book where you write whatever in. Its just a regular lined notebook in which you can write anything. I use mine to write notes, journals, my feelings, fears, to-do lists, instructions, and even these blog posts.
- I also write to-do lists. Especially, if I have places to go the next day. I also like to write mundane things such as waking up. Mostly because, checking off the waking up makes me feel accomplished enough and gets me driven to keep checking off the rest of my list.
Now, a couple of disclaimers. I am not not disciplined because of my poor parents. They have tried everything with me, but I think it’s just deeply ingrained with me.
I haven’t overnight turned into a new leaf. Any significant life changes takes time and sometimes you fail. For example: On Saturday, I woke up at 1,00pm and then stayed in bed till 9.00pm. No sh!ts were given that day. Did I feel unproductive and terrible at the end of the day? Yes! But, I am also kind to myself. Its work in progress and I am proud of myself of doing it as much as I can.
So, if you struggle with any of these, I wish you all the best. I hope some of my own experiences help you feel a bit more productive.